Week 22, Day 2

Five and a half months pregnant. Wow! Time seems to be picking up speed and flying by. Nothing that new to discuss expect at my last doctor’s visit the physician informed me that the practice voted a big fat no for me even attempting a vaginal birth after myomectomy. I have researched this topic at length and not found much information as should be available concerning it. I went to the fibroid geek site that I am a member of and found one woman after another saying ‘my doctor said I’ll have to have a c-section’. Well that’s what mine says too but I say I am in control of my own body and I will make my own decisions. The last doctor explained the situation to me in MUCH greater detail and even gave me a copy of the post op report from the doctor who performed the myomectomy as well as some referrals for other doctors since I told him I was going to get some other opinions. Granted he has 28 years of experience and that’s nothing to thumb your nose at, but still I feel as though there has to be other considerations. He said since my cut was on the fundus and so large (I had an 11 cm fibroid) that went all the way down to the soft pouch of the uterus, that there was just NO WAY! He said that my incision is on the working part of the uterus that is really working to push the baby down and out and therefore there was too great a risk of uterine rupture. He said vaginal birth may be better for me, but c-section is best for the baby. This rubbed me the wrong way and I laid into him telling him that I will do what is best for my baby. Somehow I don’t think cutting her out of me 2 weeks early is the right thing for her. I also need to be able to care for this very same baby once we get home and after being sliced once, I know what that was like and I simply could not imagine having to care for a small baby along with it. On top of that I want to give her siblings too and the constant slicing and dicing on my uterus is definitely not good for that.

All in all I am still researching and will be visiting 2 other doctors offices to see what they have to say. I will also research some midwives and doulahs to see what I can find. I am not 100% against c-section, I just think they should allow me to go into labor naturally and monitor to see how its going. From most reports uterine rupture occurs prior to deliver as late as 33 weeks. On top of that, if the doctors are so concerned about uterine rupture, I wonder what they’ll be doing to monitor me? More frequent u/s to monitor the uterus? What. I’ve got lots of questions for them and they better be prepared to answer and answer well!

I know it may seem like I am being ungrateful after my struggle with infertility, but I also do not think I am supposed to just ‘lay down and take’ whatever the doctors dish out. I think God works miracles and I have been put in this situation to show others how he works. I’ve prayed over this entire pregnancy and know that God is in control. He is on it and I told him I’ll get the info and wait on a word from Him. So far I think my little girl will be a small baby and I do believe that is a blessing so her size does not put too much stress on my mended uterus. I’ve gained 6 pounds total and I think I probably loss a good bit initially, so I am doing well. God will let me know what to do for sure!

On another note my baby girl is moving around and her kicks are stronger and stronger. I hum to her and sing and she even reacts to her daddy’s voice now. Its so cute and I am so very happy and blessed!